What If...??

Justin and I had a very enlightening conversation last night on the way home from the festival. We were talking about when we broke up back in 1999. Wow never realized that was 7 years ago...seems like just yesterday sometimes. To catch some of you up to speed, we broke up our freshman year of college for about 3 months. We each dated other people. I dated a few guys two of which have the same name, Aaron. We discussed what caused us to break up and why we didn't immediately get back together. I think part of the reason we didn't get back together right away was the fact that I was now getting attention from other guys. We had been dating for almost 3 years by then. And I felt like I had a mark on me like the scarlet letter. We continued to rehash that whys, whats, whens, and hows of the break up, separation, frequent encounters at parties, school, frat house, etc. As we were talking I began to wonder what if we had not gotten back together.

Where would I be now?

Would I be married with kids? Would I still be living in the Golden Triangle? Would I be teaching? Would I have followed my parents to Florida then Nebraska? Would I have moved out of my parents house and been on "my" own? Who would I be with?

I remember the day that I went to Justin and ask him if we could get back together and make it work. I didn't realize it then but that was the single moment in time that I changed my destiny in life. I am thankful for my choice and decision. Because I am now married to that wonderful man and have two beautiful kids by him. So my question of "What If..." is not one of felt out of unfulfillment but of shear curiosity.